I Still Have My Integrity
Life can be extremely challenging sometimes, but I think, for me, the most challenging part is dealing with people. People can be kind, generous, caring, and even genuine. Those people aren't difficult. People can also be hateful, resentful, and bitter. Those people are the challenge. You can always count on people being people and at the end of the day the only one that you are truly responsible for is yourself. When I go to bed at night I want to be able to lay my head on the pillow and feel that I have treated others well and been true to myself.
Hopefully we all have or find someone that just loves us for who we are. They know us, they understand us, and our quirks and short comings don’t scare them away. We probably all have the people that tolerate for awhile, but don’t necessarily miss us when we’re gone. Unfortunately, we probably all have those “friends” who we "get along" with, but behind closed doors they're hostile and speak negativity about us. This is what I want to talk about.
I think the thing that stirs my emotions most is when people speak negatively about me and paint me as a less than sincere. It’s usually the people who are disgruntled or bitter in general, or they've boarded another vessel going in a different direction, but that doesn’t change my reaction when I find out how they speak about me to others. It hurts, it damages, we've all experienced it, yet so many of us continue to do it.
My encouragement to you today is to know yourself and trust those closest to you. When I hear something negative spoken about me I first look inwardly. Does what was said have any merit? If it does perhaps there are some changes I need to make. However, if there is no merit to what was said then I need to let it go! Just because something was said doesn’t make it true. The people that love you and know you will not believe the stories told about you, and everyone else will have to learn the truth for themselves. At the end of the day I still have my integrity!